Currently Listening Unwritten By Natasha Bedingfield Unwritten see related

What has been going on in my life? The answer to that question would really be too long for me to want to sit here and write about it. Most of you, if not all, have a general idea of what has been going on in my life. I've almost been in Denver for a year. There have been a lot of changes in my life during that year. I would be lying if I said I was the same person I was when I jumped into my car with my sister and caravanned our way up to Colorado.

It's funny how your goals change depending on what circumstances are guiding your life at any given moment. I moved to Colorado to start a career in the professional sports industry. I currently work at a bank. I looked to start a new life, one that was completely different from what I had experienced for 21 years in Arizona. That has happened, but I can't say that I expected to be where I am today. This probably sounds like I'm disappointed with my life, but that would be the biggest mistake you could take from reading this. I really don't think I could be much more happy than I currently am.

I spent 9 1/2 months of my new life in Denver with a very special person. He was truly amazing. That relationship may have come to a close, but hopefully the friendship will never end. Being that the break-up is still pretty fresh, that friendship has not had a chance to really develop yet. The sad thing is that sometimes I get the feeling that it won't either. I made a vow to myself during the first week of being single again. I told myself that I would not be the person to make that first move with him. He initiated the break-up, so I am going to give him every minute he needs to be away from me. I figure that when he is ready, he'll come around. To be honest, I tell myself that I am ready, but I know that deep down, I'm only partially ready to see him only as a friend. One thing I know is that I have been really good about not letting that hold me back from having fun.

The last month and a half has been one hell of a ride. I have really started to experience life here in a new light. My friend base has grown exponentially. That makes me happy, but I will never regret passing on that to spend time with my boyfriend. Also during the past six weeks, I've had some pretty wild and crazy nights. I can't imagine what some of my friends back in Arizona would be saying if they had seen me. I believe they'd be happy for me and not upset or worried. But I know it would be different for them to see me now. I miss them a lot.

So, what's next? If you know me, then you know that deep in my heart, I have this insane desire to pursue love. I have this inability to hold love back. When I care about someone, I care about them with every fiber of my being. I hold nothing back. That is probably one of my biggest strengths and one of my biggest weaknesses. I don't play the "game" very well. I tend to make myself too vulnerable way before I should. Sometimes I trust too easily. At this point, I couldn't tell you whether I think that is a good or bad thing.

I have started to set some new goals now that a new chapter has opened in my life. I want to go back to school. I have started studying to retake the GMAT. I've been looking at the admissions deadlines for the University of Denver. I have also taken a look at other places outside of Colorado. I'm not entirely sure what is in store for me. What I do know is that life is happening right before my eyes. I just want to make sure that I don't miss a single second.

That last part was probably a bit cheesy, but in all honesty, I'm just writing what I feel.

Currently Listening Waiting for My Rocket to Come By Jason Mraz You and I Both see related

So, it's 4:00pm on Thursday, and I still have an hour left to spend at work.  I don't really have anything else to do, so I decided I would update on here.  Life has been good to me lately.  I can't really complain too much.  I mean I still wish the work situation was better, but it has definitely improved.  I have a couple of job leads that I am working on, but we'll just have to see what happens.  I don't want to get my hopes up for anything, even though I kinda already have.

Outside of work, everything is fantastic.  I owe most of that to Garrett.  He is amazing... I don't think I'll ever get over that fact.  We have now been dating for just over two months, which makes this my longest relationship.  I know that seems kinda sad considering I am 22, but after a couple of relationships in college where I was hurt pretty bad, I became really choosy on who I would date.  But Garrett is in my life now, and I couldn't ask for more.

My job really doesn't allow us to see each other too much, but last weekend I didn't have to work at all.  So, we spent the entire weekend together... basically from about 4:00pm on Friday until 9:30pm on Sunday.  It was sooooo nice!  We both thought we'd be ready to get away from each other, but that was so not the case.  We spoil each other by spending a lot of time together and then we don't get to see each other for a few days and we both hate it.  But we're getting by just fine.  His birthday is on November 1st, so I've been coming up with some ideas on what I want to do for him.  It should be good times no matter what.

Hmm... what else is going on?  I don't really think there is too much else to talk about.  I miss everyone back in Tucson sooooo much.  Everyday I think about what all of my family and friends are up to and just wish that I could be there to hang out and waste some time together.  I'm hoping to make it home either the weekend of Nov. 3-6 or Thanksgiving weekend.  If I get a new job though, that may be a little bit more difficult.  I'll figure something out.

Well, I have now wasted only eight minutes while typing this... so I guess I'll go find something else to waste my time with now.

Currently Listening Unwritten By Natasha Bedingfield These Words see related

So, the fact that it's been oh just over a month since I last updated on here, I'm sure you all have just assumed that I've fallen off the face of the earth.  But oh you are so wrong.    No, it's just that I have absolutely no time to do some of the simple things in life.  But I have a few minutes, so I'm going to see what I can get in here to let you all into my world for a bit.

Life in Denver is absolutely fantastic... well for the most part, that is.  I love this city so much.  I was definitely meant to move here.  I have made some amazing friends, and I've even been blessed to meet a certain someone special.  His name is Garrett, and he's just amazing.  I could go on and on about how wonderful he is, but I'll just keep that to myself for right now.  I think you get the idea that he makes me happy.

The job is going well.  I can't believe how many hours I work though.  I am at work no later than 6 a.m. everyday, and I don't typically leave until about 7 p.m.  Every once in a while, I'll get out of here in 10 or 11 hours, but that is rare.  Then, there are the long nights when I'm here til 8 or 9 p.m.  Those nights suck, and tonight is one of them.  I have to stay until the last reporter leaves.  Oh well, at least it's my last one because training camp ends tomorrow.  That has me so excited!  Friday will be a short day, and Saturday is game day (which means I don't have to be to work until 4 hours before the game!).

I guess the only bad thing about work is who I have to work with.  Actually, I love everyone except for one person... the one person I have to work with constantly throughout the season.  It's the other PR intern.  He's a hard worker and everything, but we have completely different personalities and we have very opposite strengths and weaknesses.  So, it makes for an interesting working relationship.

The only other bad thing about Denver is how much I miss everyone back home.  I have my days where I am really homesick.  It's really hitting me now that I know everyone is heading back to school.  It feels really weird to not be preparing myself for the school mode.  I'm going to miss it so much.  But I've already decided that I definitely want to be back in school for my masters by next Fall.  It's something I want to accomplish, and I want to do it before I've been out of school for too long.  So, watch out DU... you won't elude me this time!  And there might even be a few job opportunities in the media relations office at either DU or CU.  Life would be really good then.

Well, I'm down to the last reporter in the office, and he's just editing his story, so I'm going to get out of here a lot earlier than I expected, which is just fabulous!  So, until I get a chance to update again... leave some love!

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I'm Back!!!!  Yeah, I know it's been way too long since I updated, but it's also been a very busy month.  I am currently sitting in my new bedroom in my beautiful apartment in amazing Denver, Colorado!  It is absolutely beautiful here.  It's been a little warm lately, but nothing compared to Tucson.  Wow... I still can't believe that I am really here.  This has been my dream to move here and work for the Broncos, and I'm actually doing just that.  God truly does answer prayers, and I couldn't be more thankful than I am right now.

Okay, so Joe and I are pretty much all moved in to our place.  It's a really nice 2-bedroom/2-bathroom apartment.  We are having a lot of fun living together too.  I don't think I could have asked for a better roommate for this move.  So, my sister got to stick around for a couple of days, and we had fun together.  I had a really hard time saying good-bye to her at the apartment.  In the past couple years, especially since I came out and she's been able to become comfortable with it, we have been really close.  It really meant a lot to me the night I had a huge fight with my parents because she was there crying with me.  I know that sounds sad, and it was a horrible fight, but my sister and I grew a little closer that night.  So, it was a good thing.

The fight... well, I'm not going to go too much into that.  I had really hoped that my parents were slowly coming around in terms off accepting me as being gay, but I found out that night that they are nowhere close.  But that is life, and I'm fine.  I have a great support system that will help me deal with that.  I had a good group of people around me that night to help me get through it.

So, Joe and I went out for the first time last Thursday night.  It was fun, but nothing that we were expecting it to be.  We found out what it feels like to be the new boys in town.  We went to JR's and had a few drinks, but no one really spoke to us at all.  We ended up leaving around 1ish to come home.

On Friday, I had dinner with my cousin and her friends up in Westminster.  Then, we went mini-golfing!  That was fun... especially because I got to meet Garrett that night!  He stopped by the mini-golf place with his friend Cassie to say hello.  After I finished up with my cousin and her friends, I drove out to Boulder to hang out with him.  We just hung out and talked, and it was a really fun time.

Saturday was supposed to be my bum around day, but I woke up after like 5 hours of sleep, and I was just ready to go for the day.  I did some cleaning around the apartment and fun stuff like that.  Then, Josh (another new friend) came over.  We met some friends of his for coffee and then we went out to Boulder to walk around and get dinner.  We ended the night at a club, which was a lot of fun.  Joe met up with us there, along with some of Josh's friends.  I kinda got a little emotional that night and had to take a walk outside.  I was just really missing some of my friends, especially Anne.  It just felt weird that she wasn't right there with me.  That's just what we did on the weekends together, and I miss her being around as much as she used to be.

Sunday was fun too.  Finally, my body allowed me to sleep in a little.  Garrett called not too long after I woke up.  We ended up grabbing a bite to eat for lunch and hung out the rest of the afternoon and evening.  Again, it was a great time!

Work started Monday.  I have had two very long days of work... yeah, I know - welcome to the real world.  The first day was kinda boring, but not too bad.  I worked nine hours straight today.  Right now, we're just preparing for training camp which starts July 28th.  I also found out I get to travel to both of our preseason games in Houston and Arizona (woohoo, back to the desert heat!).  Then, the other intern and I chose the four away games we each get to go to.  So, I get to travel to the New York Giants game, and then to Oakland, Kansas City, and San Diego.  We both get to go to any postseason games that we have.  I also found out that I get two tickets to every home game, which is awesome!  The last and one of the coolest perks is that I have business cards! Haha, yeah I'm a dork.  They spelled my name wrong on them, but I don't know whether to say something or not.  Oh well, it's still really cool!

Hmm, is there anything else??  Well, I must say that the Denver boys are H-O-T!   I don't mind the eye candy one bit.  I might just have my eye on someone, too, but we'll see how that works out. Hehe!

Okay, well I guess that is it for now.  I'll try to keep this updated more often, but you know me - I'm so social these days.  Miss everyone back in Arizona!!!